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Hello. It is warm and good to share and be open to the world. Is even better when we are honest and dare to see things as they are for the sake of truth and honesty, to be able to choose what we really prefer, to understand ourselves better.

It is more simple to understand physical fight than mental, it is easier to understand persistance and weapon of steel in a physical fight, than it is to understand the weapon of 'truth' and persistance in mental fights that is not so easily seen.

I myself have some struggle with weight as I don't find so much interest in food as in information, understanding, consciousness and similar topics. We not always see why we choose what we choose, and that doesn't let us be more. So I wanted to share my insights: we do what we do, because we have our own reasons, feelings, securities and dependancies. And our mind works so that each belief is uprooted in others that you can't seem to remove one without others. A musician that spends a lot of years in music, might not know or see point in skating on ice. 

Only by not having attachments to anything like ideas, beliefs one can be more of himself truly. Finding safety with attachments is not being yourself fully to me. Maybe only some truly honest people, or some buddhist/dao like people can achieve it. Having fear and attachments it is brave to let them go and do what is natural, what is wei wu wei, as we dont feel heart if it works good, dont hear some beep in ears if they work good. 

Being myself or being someone else, like model - it seems logical that is the most easy thing to do is do the same things that I have been doing, it requaries kind of being not oneself to make a new habit. Balance, integrity and natural way seems something to seek to let those in oneself.

So what I recommend is - to get to know more and more people deeply, and see how they enjoy what they do. I learned how to enjoy sunbathing by observing one of my long ago friends, when I didn't see the point in it before. All things are valid, all things are possible in the universe, and question is what we prefer, and from what reasons does that arise.

And you might like this "second most translated" book in audio for inspiration maybe, just sharing what I enjoy - Tao te ching
Mind justifying itself - ineligible for any other action, this rule I apply only to myself.

Have a good week.